It might have started right there and then: the bottom up shirt the rolled-up sleeves, the smell of coffee and the end of your frayed espadrilles that is eager to test the hot gravel path that have been lead around the town, those are things that resemble YOU
I’ve been spending way too long checking my face in the mirror and bending over backwards just to see it clearer but my breath fogged up the glass. I took a deep breath asking myself if I’m ok yet, My heart almost beaten off my chest and I guess I’ve been asking way too much of a “How do I look?”
Been feeling way too excited I thought my legs couldn’t go another step
Walked in expecting you’d be late but you got here early, I saw your face and I wanted nothing other than erase myself. I looked up one more time before I decide to turn on my heals and run away but you was standing there and waved, your eyes shined across the room and I went straight to your extended arms.
My trembling lips couldn’t make out a word and “Oh dear” where are those words I’ve learned in school have gone to, all the things I’ve known things I’ve read and things I’ve watched- They are all gone
It’s no use and I felt like a deaf and dumb person who can’t even use a sigh language, I tried to be chill but you’re so hot that I melted, I fell right through the cracks
I just stared and you grinned and looked right back it felt like just one big whirlwind. You hid away your light brown eyes as you returned my smile, perhaps it’s rare or perhaps you’re doing it on purpose and you couldn’t be bother which.
You pulled my chair out and helped me in and you didn’t even hesitate that you’ll lose your dignity. Your head was thrown back laughing like I didn’t just yield my palm for not believing you’re real
Though the breezes through the trees move so pretty but you’re all I see as though the world have been blacked out, as there’s only you in the crowded café, I watched your lips danced when you talked. you held my gaze and keep telling me your eyes was up there
I got self conscious under your gaze, in front of a person who is so throughly ok with himself, the way he was okay with his body, his anti backhands, with his choice of books, music, film, friends. He was ok with criticism too
I think it’s strange that you think I’m funny because I called you “Pretty friend”
I’ve been spending the last two years thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end, but on a Thursday in a café down the neighborhood I felt it in my chest again one more time- watch my eyes glittered with pink filter once again
Love looks older now but just as beautiful as I remember
We ran under the rain and I’m sure it’s a dark rainy day, or perhaps all I see was a bright clear day with a dancing sun that is shinning pink. We were soaked and my make up was running along the rain while your shirt was all see through, we laughed it out like our life depend on it, and no one have a clue as to why.
We tell stories and you proudly informed that you could speak my language when you can’t even get the one word you like right, I watched you blossom like a rose with no wonder of what he’d be doing at the moment
I almost brought him up but you started to talk about the special occasion in your family you’ve missed during the time you’re here.
“What did one do during the day?” right after you asked you immediately got the gist and read me out completely “Don’t tell me you’re waiting for summer to end”
It undid me wisely well like a singing bird who got immediately drowned out by the rattle of the cicadas after a few note.
Across the water across the deep blue ocean and under the open sky I’m sending my words through the stars, the moon to witness and the earth to listen. Do you hear me I’m singing to you sending my every bit of love?
You say “I hear you in my dreams I feel your whisper across the wind, I keep you with me in my heart. Life gets hard but it does get better when you’re around”
What a fortune to have you in my embrace, lucky to have been where I have been
It felt just like coming home again in your arm, I heard your heartbeat- I sensed your smell and your tender breath. They don’t know how long it takes waiting for a long gone miracle like this
You ask “what you’re up to?”
I said “Another long day”
“Would you be here for the rest of my life?”
And I thanked god it was a text
You existed in my life by my silly fast and forward and naive mistake, you existed in my life when I was just nothing but a dirty mess from all the pain and pressured. You came by so fast that I thought I was dreaming because you’re so charming, kind and beautiful and hella cheeky
But the realization is you haven’t left
You were so witty and so charming, you swept me off my feet I laugh I blush no one could explain. Because It seemed too good to be true
We clicked like Legos or the clacking of tap shoes
You said hey
I said “hello, how was your day?”
You said “better now” and I could easily see your smile along the words
The moon to witness and The earth to listen